Tuesday, June 5, 2012

My 2 little teachers.

Here I am. Happy. Wow. Never thought I'd get here. Never even thought I'd say it out loud. Well I'm kind of 'writing' it though right? Hold on. (yelling, 'I'm Happy'! ) There. Now I said it out loud. But I am. It's been a rough few months. But I am more than grateful. A wonderful husband, beautiful house and 2 healthy wonderfully nutty children. I love those babies. I love them because they are mine. Because I held them inside and then was blessed enough to meet them from the start when they first saw light in this world. I love them more than I love myself. I would do just about anything for them. Provided it was legal. The fact is they are my life. Being a stay at home mom wasn't what I thought it would be. It still isn't, but I've come to realize that raising my kids is what I came here to accomplish. It was not an easy road. And my journey is far from over. It took me a while to accept. To fall in love with parenting. And I'm still not a huge fan most days. But I do love those kids. Because they teach me every day what life is all about. These are only examples of what lessons I've learned. Happy reading! :o)

Compassion: They have unconditional compassion. All they understand is that a life is a life is a life. And my daughter although afraid of most bugs, genuinely wants to meet, hold and see what all the creatures are like and why they do everything that they do. This teaches me to be more compassionate not only to animals, but to my kids. It's hard sometimes when you get caught up in the daily grind to remember to put yourself in your kids shoes. But if you do, you'll realize quickly why they are frustrated, or angry or taking a tantrum. After all, Growing up is hard to do!

Affection: It seems simple, but boy is it not. You can get busier and busier with children, or your job. Or maybe stress has you feeling grumpy more often than you'd like. But I feel so blessed to know that I have those little vending machines of love at my disposal. This has taught me to love harder. You never know what life will bring you or take away. So you have to appreciate everyone in your life. I am going to embarass the crap out of these kids some day because I will never stop hugging or kissing them.

Imagination: There is nothing better than a child's imagination. My kids astound me at the things they come up with. My daughter is so inventive, and so smart so she always combines the two. And without fail comes up with the strangest and funniest things. This teaches me that just because I am an adult, doesn't mean I can't imagine too. I can chime right in and add to the silliness which is only going to make us all laugh. And lets face it, Laughter is The best medicine. 

Patience: They surely don't have any. But they teach me every single day that in order to attempt to raise civilized, humble, loving human beings, I must bring all the patience I have to the table. Simply in hopes that my cards don't run out before the end of each and every game(day). It usually does, but no parent is perfect. We are all just on this crazy ride together. And at least that's encouraging.

Motivation: There isn't anything that can motivate you like having kids. Or maybe a 5 hr energy drink. Granted I need caffeine most mornings to get going to be functional. But the motivation I'm referring to here is to live. To see things. To go places. To be a part of society. To be a part of life. It might seem so simple to others, but I have depression from time to time. Things like getting up, taking a shower, brushing my teeth, and not projecting my b.s. onto my kids is an achievement some days. There are days I just want to crawl up in a ball and be left alone. But my kiddos have taught me that you can't live your life that way. And if you want your babies to have a happy, positive, fulfilling life, you have to get your ass up, dust yourself off, or whatever it is that you have to do and get your butt moving. They don't like sitting around doing nothing and who can blame them when there are so many wonderful things in life to experience and be a part of. So Lets Go!

Love:  There is nothing more profound and priceless than the love of the your kids. And to think, it's freely given. No matter how bad a day you think you had. No matter how guilty you feel about a spat or yelling at them or punishment it's all out of love so you get nothing but love in return. Maybe it's not immediate. But it's always there regardless. And my kids have taught me that. That they will love me no matter what. And I will love them even more. They have taught me to be accepting as those who love me are accepting of me. I am FAR from perfect and I can't possibly expect anyone else to be. 

So that's it. That's my list. I hope it makes you feel good. And I hope you like it. If not, well, I love you anyway! :o) 

-V

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